All moved in

Well Winter Semester is officially over. My roommates are gone, my friends are gone, my ward is gone, I'm all moved out of my old dorm, and all moved in to my new dorm. Last Friday was one of the longest and hardest days I have ever experienced. I won't go into much detail, but just know that I had to say goodbye to a lot of awesome people. I now live in New Heritage and it is huge! We have two closets, the kitchen has SO many cupboards, we actually have a living room for once, there are two bathrooms, and over all there is just a lot more space. There are some drawbacks though. Where are we supposed to put our bathroom stuff? There are no cupboards or cabinets in the bathroom. And we don't really have closets in our room so very little place to store things in our room and there are no mirrors in our room. So there are pros and cons to living here. I think I am going to eventually like it and my roommates are super nice so I'm sure I will have fun. But right now it just feels so weird to be here. Everything is unpacked and my walls are decorated, but it doesn't feel like home the way my old dorm did.

Last year, I felt the same way about my old dorm. I felt uncomfortable there and lonely and like I didn't belong, but eventually I came to love the place and it literally became my home. Lexi and I stopped saying "okay I'm heading back to the dorm" and started saying "okay I'm heading home." It feels so weird to be here and to know that I can't ever go back, that it isn't my home anymore, that next year different girls will be living there. It is a really really strange and sad feeling. I know that I will probably feel the same about this dorm at the end of the semester, but right now, I've just barely moved in and I don't feel like I belong yet.

And classes don't even start until Tuesday, and even then, the only class on Tuesday I have is my dance class, so the next couple of days are sure to be LONG days. I just want the semester to start so I can lose myself in homework. I'm actually really craving homework that way I can have something to keep my mind off of the fact that I've lost everything from last semester.

Well I've tried to make this post seem not too sad. I really am grateful for so many things. I'm grateful for the best year of my life, and I'm grateful for another two semesters to make more friends and have even more fun. I'm grateful that my new roommates seem so nice and I am grateful that this new building is safer than the last one. I don't feel like it is going to topple to the ground. I'm thankful for the help I received yesterday moving out and moving in. And I'm thankful for all the little things that God has placed in my life to make it more bearable. Coming to BYU really was the best decision I ever made.

Oh and if anyone is still around/nearby and wants to come visit in this upcoming week, please do! I'm going to be very bored I think.